“There’s no place like home…”
Dorothy Gale was on to something when she uttered those words in the land of Oz. But what if there is no place that feels like home?
On a recent visit back to my first home, someone told me, “I’m not going to welcome you home… I know this isn’t your home anymore, but I’m so happy to see you.” I know these words were shared in kindness and with an understanding of my new situation, but I couldn’t help but feel grief. In that moment, I was forced to face my new reality – I am a stranger in the place I have always considered home.
Returning to life overseas, I no longer feel like a “fish out of water.” The unfamiliar sights, sounds, and smells that once overwhelmed me now feel commonplace. What once felt impossible to navigate has become familiar. No matter how at home I may feel, I’m always aware that I’m an outsider. One could say I am “comfortably different.” An alien in a foreign land.
Have you ever been in between shoe sizes?
(This may sound like a random question, but just bear with me for a moment)
I’ve spent most of my adult life with feet that are too big for one size and too small for the next. I constantly debate which problem is worse – suffocating my toes or slipping out of the heel. Nothing fits exactly right, so I decide which issue I would rather live with and do my best to make it work. Sometimes, as the shoe molds to the shape of my foot with each wear, the discomfort slips away like a distant memory.
This is what it feels like to live abroad – life between two homes.
A stranger in a homeland and a foreigner in a familiar place. Two homes, yet not fully fitting into either.
That tension — of living between places and identities — is not a new experience. When Peter wrote his letters to the persecuted church, he addressed the exiles or strangers scattered to the four winds. People displaced from their homes, not by choice but by persecution.
I may never fully comprehend the experiences of someone forced to flee their home, but I do understand the feeling of not belonging – most of us do. I think this is why Peter focuses so heavily on our identity. At some point, we will all grapple with belonging.
But there is a holiness in learning to live humbly in places that are not fully ours.
To receive hospitality instead of entitlement. To listen more than speak. To understand rather than assume. To seek peace rather than comfort. To find joy in the mundane. To love without expectation.
All of us – as Christ followers – are strangers in this land. Our faith was never meant to make us comfortable residents of earth but hopeful travelers moving toward a perfect kingdom.
In the midst of our discomfort, we must cling to the truth.
“But you are a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for his possession, so that you may proclaim the praises of the one who called you out of darkness into his marvelous light. Once you were not a people, but now you are God’s people; you had not received mercy, but now you have received mercy.” 1 Peter 2: 9-10
Who we are is not defined by where we live or where we come from – our identity is defined by our Maker.
Our Savior.
Our Cornerstone.
When I feel out of place, I cling to David’s words, “The Lord watched over the foreigner…” (Psalm 146:9).
And he is still watching over us.
