I’m Going to Break You (Pt. 5)

Day five

We awoke early the next morning to begin our final day of climbing before the summit attempt. As I choked down breakfast and guzzled as much water as my stomach could handle, I dreaded putting on my hiking boots. By this point, my feet were swollen to twice their standard size, and I had completely lost feeling in 3 of my toes. I forced my feet into my boots, and my whole body ached as we began our ascent.

As we inched forward, one step at a time, I began repeating over and over in my mind, “The Lord is my refuge and strength. My ever-present help in times of trouble. Therefore, I will not fear…” Psalm 46:1-2a. Without even realizing it, my internal mantra became external at some point. Tara was hiking behind me and asked, “What verse are you repeating?” then, “Why don’t you finish the verse?” The rest of the verse speaks of mountains crumbling into the sea, probably not the encouragement needed for mountain climbing. However, it would make our descent quicker!

As we hiked higher and higher over dusty sand and scattered rock, I began setting small, attainable goals for myself. I would look ahead, pick a landmark, and then pray, sing, count steps — do whatever was necessary to motivate me — until I reached my goal. The higher we climbed, the shorter the distance became between each landmark. The path steepened, and as we approached the final mile to camp, we began seeing weary travelers descending the mountain. This is a kind, too-pretty description of what we came to describe as mountain zombies – hikers being carried, dragged, and rolled back down the mountain after their summit attempt. Many looked to be near death as they were thrown over the shoulder of their guide like a porter hauling tents. I can’t say this made anyone on our team eager to continue the climb.

We continued passing mountain zombies, and my distance between goals continued to decrease. We were in the last half hour, but I wasn’t sure if my wobbly legs and swollen feet could make it. At this point, I felt the effects of the altitude as my lungs gasped for air and my muscles shook from fatigue.

Lesson #6 – we are stronger in community.

“And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds, not giving up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but encouraging one another—and all the more as you see the Day approaching.” Hebrews 10:24-25

Two dear teammates, Wade and Tara, took the same painfully slow pace I set and encouraged me along the way.

“Emma, take ten more steps, and then you can rest.”

“That’s it, now let’s do ten more!”

“Think you can do 15 this time? Then we can pause to catch our breath.”

This went on for at least half an hour, counting my every step, pausing with me when needed, and speaking encouragement when I had no words. Reminding me of the goals ahead and how much we had achieved. Before I knew it, we had arrived. A hot lunch waited for us, and a glorious afternoon nap.

We would eat dinner, sleep for a few hours, and soon begin the final climb.

To Be Continued…

2 thoughts on “I’m Going to Break You (Pt. 5)

  1. bpatterson6d28027645's avatar bpatterson6d28027645 November 20, 2023 / 8:33 pm

    I can’t say it enough – how proud I am of you for doing this! I keep thinking of August of 2022, when we started “training” just by walking around the neighborhood. It was difficult at the beginning – especially the hills… but after months of walking – you were able to do it joyfully! We walked so often that it became a habit… and one that I will cherish for the rest of my life (because I got to do it alongside you).
    I told you often “I don’t care if you ever climb Mt Kilimanjaro, I’m SO glad you’re creating a healthy habit that will last a lifetime!”. After stopping a walk at home due to pain in your shins or feet… and then knowing you were able to endure the pain and keep going on the mountain (day after day!) – I knew God was involved in each step on your journey. Phil 4: 13: You can do all things throught Christ who gives you strength! Can’t wait for next Monday!!! Love you Emma! Dad

  2. Brandi's avatar Brandi November 27, 2023 / 3:54 am

    Thank you for writing this down! Incredibly impactful! Can’t wait for part 5!!!

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